Shoes….still on the list.
Pre-op blood drawn….did that this afternoon.
Continuing physical therapy exercises and sticking to Weight Watchers…..ummmm…….not so good. I am easily distracted by chocolate chip cookies. Exercise and diet are my weakest links on the health chain. I am counting on being a whole new person after surgery….one who likes to be active again. One who doesn’t need to avoid activity in order to avoid pain.
Eleven days to go. I have been in a waiting stage for three months….waiting for my new real life to begin. I can remember feeling this way decades ago when I decided to drop out of college and work for a while to earn the money to transfer to the University of Hawaii. I remember that six-month period of time waiting for my real life to start. Of course, it turned out that real life was right here at home in Michigan. My semester in Hawaii was very real, but definitely not my real life.
I waited again for my real life to start when I became engaged. The six months before the wedding seemed like I was just practicing for real life. Eventually the time passed; I had a lovely wedding; and life was certainly real.
Once more, during my first pregnancy, I had an extended waiting time. I spent the full nine months eager for that particular real life experience to start. And then all the waiting was over. Children have a way of grounding you completely into real life. I learned then to live in the present, and I didn’t count any of the days after that. I've just lived them.
Until now. My daily life looks exactly the same. But my inner life….feels so much more distant and removed. I’m ready for my post-surgery future to be my now. So I can be a whole new person again….one who likes to be active.
Next week will be devoted to organization. Cleaning up, clearing out, stocking up, getting ahead. Clarifying, simplifying, focusing. Bring it on!